I thought I had crossed the point where I can have a quarter life crisis. But evidently, it can happen anytime and honestly for loooooong duration’s!
Not that you want to renounce the worldly pleasures; But you just want to pack a bag and go somewhere nobody knows you. Well that technically becomes renouncing stuff, but I don’t want to give up my camera and my phone. Actually I would gladly give up my phone. But then again I won’t be able to Instagram so I think the phone needs to go with me. So the camera and the phone and the Instagram updates stay.
The point is, at times, you actually feel that everything that you’ve been doing till now is pretty much useless, and you can just stop doing it and leave everything and nothing would really change. Like the world just goes on without anyone noticing. And it’s kinda gradual you know…like it just happens when you don’t notice it. And then all of a sudden it’s the only thing around you, within you and about you.
You try to do everything that you can to get rid of it and get over it, but it just keeps engulfing you. And after a point you just accept it. You stop fighting it and just let it be a part of you.
So you try and explain it to other people how you feel and nobody gets it, so you open your laptop and start looking for places where you can can run away but realize that the summer holidays are on go every place would be crowded except maybe the Thar Desert. So here I’m sitting trying to figure out if I’l be able to bear that level of heat when I’m already half dead because of the heath in Delhi.
Inshallah I’l be able to find that one place where I can run away.