A Letter To Santa

Dear Santa,

I know you must be insanely busy these days and probably going crazy with all the work. So let me just increase that pile of letter’s by adding my letter to it. Now don’t start pulling out your hair! It’s your job to read all the letter that come your way, even if they have been written to you by someone who has been really naughty all year long.

I know I haven’t been an image of goodness all year, but in my defence, this year sucked!

To begin with, I lost my grandmother in the very beginning of the year. I fought and screamed at god for doing this and till date I can’t come to terms with the fact that when I go to her place I don’t see her in her room waiting for me. Or that I didn’t get a phone call from her on my birthday. And now I never will get one. 

That was like the biggest set back that came to me.

The next was when I didn’t get into the college of my choice because I was short of just 1 mark. 1 Mark. That was all it took to throw all my hard work and sleepless nights down the drain.

Then came the innumerable misunderstandings that I had with my best friend. We fought for like months!

And I am not even mentioning all the other crap that happened all year long. And believe me I died a little inside every time something happened.

I almost gave up on life. It was really bad and I just had no idea what to do and get myself together.

But every time life kicked me in the face I got up stronger than ever to kick back. And I’m glad I didn’t lose hope. 

So this year I want nothing but peace and happiness. And maybe a little less of all the shit that happened last year. (OK, a lot less!!)

I know I am not in your good list but please be nice this time. And if you ever have a chat with god, tell him I’v marked 2013 in my black list and I would be having a long talk with him about it whenever I have the  pleasure of his acquaintance.

I have had a lot of good things as well but it is outweighed by the bad at any given point. So please be kind to me and everyone around me this year. I really can’t take another year like this one.

Love

Urshita 

A Life Lived Well

They say when a person grows old and realises that his life is about to end soon, he can clearly remember everything that happened in his life. All the choices he made, the decisions he took, the joys and the sorrows. But what he remembers and regrets most is all those things that he did not or could not do.

What was done is over, but what could not be done is what makes you realise how things would have been so different if only one had the guts to go ahead with what his heart wanted to do.

Family, money, ego, fear or anything that stopped him from doing what he most wanted to do. It’s ironical how you realise all this when you can do absolutely nothing about it.

But, the thing is, if we all know this, that we might end up regretting not doing something, then why don’t we just follow our heart?

I am hopefully nowhere near death, 😛 but there are things that I really regret not doing. It’s not that I did not do anything that my heart said. Believe me I’v had a rocking life, but there are still things that I wished I had done without thinking too much about their consequences.

Yes, life would have been different today had I made a different decision. Today, as I sit back and think about my life, there is this long list of things that I realise I wanted to do in my life but for some reason I never did them.

For example, I always wanted to learn how to play the guitar. I had the opportunity and I still have a guitar at my home but I’m just too lazy to pick it up and learn something. And this also includes the piano. I started learning the piano, learned some stuff, but for some reason still unknown to me, I stopped mid way and till now I’v not learned the whole thing.

But what I regret the most is not saying sorry when I knew I was wrong but my supreme ass of an ego always got in between and I kept sulking. I wish I had the courage then to kick my ego and just say sorry to the people  who meant so much to me, but I lost them because of the non communication which resulted chiefly because of me 😦 .

Today, I take this opportunity, to apologise to everybody who was hurt because of me. I’m sorry for being such an ass.

Even if nobody forgives me (which in some cases I can totally understand because I’v been a complete jerk), I can have the satisfaction of at least trying to make things better again by agreeing that I was wrong.

Yes, thing would never be the same. I know just an apology would never be enough but we would have the memories of all the good times. So that maybe when I celebrate my hundredth birthday, I can happily look back at all those good days and say, that yes, it was a life lived well…..

 

 

PS- Yamaha, if you are reading this I’m really sorry for being such an idiot.

 

 

PPS- Yamaha was my closest friend. And no, his name is really not Yamaha, it’s just what I call him. 😛

Happiness

What is happiness??

According to Wikipedia, Happiness is a mental or emotional state of Well-being  characterized by positive or pleasant emotions ranging from contentment to intense joy.

Everybody will have different interpretations of the above definition. For me happiness is that state of calm when I want nothing more from life.

I recently read an article on stress management that said to avoid stress taking a toll on you, you should find sometime every week for yourself and do things that make you happy. Now even though thankfully I’m far from being stressed out due to my utter lack of interest in anything remotely serious 😛  ,the article inspired me to list down all the things that make me happy. So here is my list of top 10 things that bring me ultimate happiness!

1. My camera:  Oh! the joy that I feel every time I pick up my beloved camera. Pure unadulterated  contentment rushes through my veins when this baby is in my hands. Whenever I am pissed out I pick my camera and forget the world. Thrown in a good location and nice weather and I achieve nirvana!

Camera

2. Balloons: Yes, you heard right. Balloons. I know it makes no sense for a girl my age to be excited about something as kiddish as balloons but I jump and squeal like a six year old every time I see balloons, much to the embarrassment of anybody who is with me at that time. 😉

Balloons

3. Chocolate:  A new study shows that eating dark chocolate may lower levels of stress hormones in people feeling stressed out.Researchers found that eating the equivalent of one average-sized dark chocolate candy bar each day for two weeks reduced levels of the stress hormone cortisol as well as the “fight-or-flight” hormones known as catecholamines in highly stressed people.

Need I say more??? 🙂

Chocolate

4. Extra Sleep In The Morning: I’m sure everybody would agree with me on this one. Who does not like that 5 minute extra sleep after you throw away your alarm clock( I don’t know about others but I literally throw away the poor alarm clock). And when you realise that those 5 minutes can be extended to an hour, the joy is indescribable.

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5. Going out with friends: I have been blessed with some really good friends. Yes there are a couple of jerks as well but then you need them to add a dash of excitement in life. Having lunch with my besties, while we all crib and complaint of everything that’s going wrong in life  is the best possible way for me to be happy.

Friends

6. Talking to myself: I know that certifies me as crazy but then there are times when nobody can understand how you feel. In such times I happily talk to myself much to the amazement and horror of people around me.

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7. Subway(The Sandwich Place) : A simple Veggie Delight sandwich with extra chilli and mayonnaise spells happiness for me.

Subway

8. Shopping: Though I’m a big big miser and usually don’t spend money without calculating and comparing every possible store and item, there are times when retail therapy is the only thing that can keep me sane. So I call up my cousin (Who btw has an awesome sense of style and thus is my stylist) and we go around mall-hopping.

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9. Sitcoms: ‘Friends’, “The Big Bang Theory”, “Sarabhai v/s Sarabhai” are some of the sitcoms that can light up any dull day.

Sitcoms

10. Music: Earphones in. Favourite song. Volume up. Forget the world

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