The Hustle

It takes immense amount of hard work to get a venture to take off. And I’m just talking of taking it off. Making it big is another ball game altogether.

You form an idea, plan things, make projections, create god knows how many spreadsheets and then make innumerable calls just to get people interested in what you are doing and make them understand your idea.

And in all this you try and find clients for your business. But the day you get your first client is when all that hard work seems worth it.

The rejections, the meetings, the emails, the running across the entire city just to hand over a proposal all seem worth the effort.

But once you start getting clients, you need to scale up your operations so that you get more clients. It’s a vicious cycle I know! But you gotta do it.

So then begins another round of those spreadsheets, calls, emails, running around, meetings….

And in all this, what breaks your confidence is not the rejection. But the delay that happens in the decision making of all the big organisations. I mean for a small venture like our’s, it’s just two people who make all the decisions. If we like it we say yes, if we don’t we reject it.

But when you talk of the multi national organisations, the decision making is long enough to turn your hair white.

I mean even someone like me who never took a minute’s stress in her life can say that she has grey hair. Yeah it’s just one tiny strand of hair but still!!

So you go back to your office, and go over every strategy that you had. You plan and re plan things so that you get things going faster. You cry, you scream, you almost give up and your heart breaks.

For the past couple of months, this has been my life. It’s literally a roller coaster of emotions. One day I’m jumping with excitement because I finalyyyy got that call that I had been waiting for to confirm the meeting that I so badly wanted. And the very next day I’m down in the dumps because something went wrong and just turned all my plans topsy turvy.

There are days when you would want to run away because OH MY GOD!! It’s freaking frustrating to go through all this and still be calm. It takes immense amount of patience to not break someone’s head because at times it’s just crazy!

But it’s all this hustle that makes your journey so exciting. Yes there are low’s but then at the same time there are high points as well.  The low’s force you to think more and be more flexible.

We’ve come a long way from where we started. And from here we are preparing to hustle even harder to make our venture a multi million idea!

Cheers!

 

Lucky Charms

Do you believe in lucky charms? Do you believe that a piece of jewelry or metal could actually bring you all the good luck that you seek? I for one don’t believe in such things. I don’t think that there really exists something like a trinket or a talisman that could actually work like magic for you.

I’m not here to judge anybody. Everyone is entitled to their own opinion. And if you believe that a charm or a bracelet could do wonders to you then by all means hold on to that thing with dear life.

But I do believe in people. Somebody once told me that the biggest influence in our life is by the people we surround ourselves with. There are people who would set your mind free with all the positivity in them. And then there are people who would cage all your thoughts and make you look at everything that’s wrong with the world.

Up till now I never really had given this philosophy much thought. But in the past year I’ve observed that there is a certain change in the way I’ve started looking at things. It began in a subtle way and gradually my mind started accepting things which I otherwise would have given up thinking them to be impossible.

I started accepting the fact that no matter what I do some people will never be pleased with me. And trust me this is a hard thing for me to accept because for years I had been trying to become something I wasn’t just to get a simple nod of approval. What seemed like an immense effort came as so easily to me that the simplicity of my decisions stumped me.

I was by no means a rebel but yes I did stand up for what I loved and wanted and gave up on the false hopes of being happy while doing something that I hated. It was like I had been sleep walking all this time and somebody came and lovingly woke me up. The change was so gradual that it took me some time to realize what I had actually done!

It wasn’t until a few weeks back when I finally sat down and thought about what I was really doing because suddenly my life seemed to be going exactly where I wanted it to go!! One year was all it took to shake off 24 years worth of self pity, depression and the insane need to please people.

For most of you it might be an ordinary thing but for me it was the biggest decision of my life. To stand up for what I wanted and not give a damn to the fact that barely anybody supported me. And all this because somebody out there  was standing by my side listening to all the crap that I had to tell and still at the end of every rant tell me that everything will be fine.

4 simple words. Infinite depth in meaning. Everything will be fine.

Sometimes people inadvertently help you just by being there. They don’t do anything or say much, but them just being there with you is probably the biggest asset in your life. They will listen to you, console you, make you laugh and at times unknowing to both of you give you just the correct amount of strength that you needed to get back up and fight the entire god damn world.

I don’t know if it makes me believe in lucky charms…. but it does make me believe in that one person.

 

Lets Get Done With 2015

I’m just dying to get done with 2015. I mean the last couple of days just drag and it makes me all fidgety. I just want to be done with it and start writing a new date!

Not that 2015 was bad. It was in fact the most dramatic year of my life till date. And when I say drama, I mean like the crying, screaming, fighting, eye rolling and what not! I mean this year will be the highly mentioned in my autobiography.

This year my life did a complete U-turn on me. I’ve done things which otherwise I would have never thought of in my wildest dreams. It’s like I had a new found confidence in myself and I just went with my gut feeling.

2015 was in some ways very kind to me. I did grow up this year. I realised I’ve stopped talking or expressing myself so much. I actually love solitude now. Something which I absolutely detested last year. I was all about being around people. But now I just want to sit alone somewhere and maybe talk to my self.( Yeah, that habit is still there. Nobody can understand me better than me.)

I don’t tell people what I’m feeling or share so much because I realised people are just interested in listening to what concerns them. Anything other than that is a waste of time for them. So why should I go ahead and blabber my feeling when the person listening is not even being kind enough to pay attention.

Yes, 2015 was a mixed bag of experiences. It had its fair share of ups and downs. But 2015 will always have my gratitude. It made me realise that nobody, and I mean it nobody can make me do what I don’t want to. Yes I was always stubborn but this year I understood the limit to which I will fight for what I think is right.

I’m done with putting up with people who are always telling me what to do and what not to do. From now on it’s either my way or the highway.

So here’s to a fabulous new year! I hope and pray 2016 rocks!!

 

😀

Why Storms Are Named After People

IMG_20150803_180721

 

 

Do not fall in love with the photographer in me. I will take innumerable pictures of us together so you would never be able to take out of your site the memories we created.

Do not fall in love with the traveler in me. I will take you along to the most beautiful locations on earth so that every time you travel somewhere alone your heart will yearn for me.

Do not fall in love with the writer in me. I will write letters and notes for you that would tell you everything that I find hard to say out loud; so your mind will be filled with the words I never spoke.

Do not fall in love with the avid reader in me. I will dive deep into a book and be lost for days only to come back into reality and make you read the most romantic and passionate lines I had read, so that every time you hear about love your eyes search for me.

Do not fall in love with me….I will bring to your life the addiction you had been avoiding all this time….

That Moment….

There are times when all you want to do is howl and scream your heart out….and cry yourself to sleep. But all you can do is smile and pretend that everything is fine. When every fiber your being wants to run away and never come back. When breathing becomes a task. When nobody seems to understand what you are trying to say….not because they can’t understand, but because you are unable to tell them how much it hurts inside.

When being alone is the best part of your day, but nobody will ever leave you alone to enjoy that solitude. When eyes run dry of tears and nothing seems to fill the gap inside you. When advise’s flow in from everywhere and you are unable to tell people that it’s not advise that you want. And what you want is something they will never understand. Because you yourself are unable to get rid of the storm inside you.

You know something is wrong and thinking straight takes effort. When hurting yourself seems tempting but you know that it will never prove a point. When everything seems to fall apart and you are made to watch your life shredded into pieces. When you end up hurting the people closest to you. When nothing you say seems to make sense to anybody. And eventually your words lose all sense to you as well….

At that exact moment you need to be your strongest. When nothing seems right and nobody understands you. It is possible that you and only you can make sense of whats going on. Hold on to that. Because at that exact moment, you will finally come face to face with the real you.