Lucky Charms

Do you believe in lucky charms? Do you believe that a piece of jewelry or metal could actually bring you all the good luck that you seek? I for one don’t believe in such things. I don’t think that there really exists something like a trinket or a talisman that could actually work like magic for you.

I’m not here to judge anybody. Everyone is entitled to their own opinion. And if you believe that a charm or a bracelet could do wonders to you then by all means hold on to that thing with dear life.

But I do believe in people. Somebody once told me that the biggest influence in our life is by the people we surround ourselves with. There are people who would set your mind free with all the positivity in them. And then there are people who would cage all your thoughts and make you look at everything that’s wrong with the world.

Up till now I never really had given this philosophy much thought. But in the past year I’ve observed that there is a certain change in the way I’ve started looking at things. It began in a subtle way and gradually my mind started accepting things which I otherwise would have given up thinking them to be impossible.

I started accepting the fact that no matter what I do some people will never be pleased with me. And trust me this is a hard thing for me to accept because for years I had been trying to become something I wasn’t just to get a simple nod of approval. What seemed like an immense effort came as so easily to me that the simplicity of my decisions stumped me.

I was by no means a rebel but yes I did stand up for what I loved and wanted and gave up on the false hopes of being happy while doing something that I hated. It was like I had been sleep walking all this time and somebody came and lovingly woke me up. The change was so gradual that it took me some time to realize what I had actually done!

It wasn’t until a few weeks back when I finally sat down and thought about what I was really doing because suddenly my life seemed to be going exactly where I wanted it to go!! One year was all it took to shake off 24 years worth of self pity, depression and the insane need to please people.

For most of you it might be an ordinary thing but for me it was the biggest decision of my life. To stand up for what I wanted and not give a damn to the fact that barely anybody supported me. And all this because somebody out there  was standing by my side listening to all the crap that I had to tell and still at the end of every rant tell me that everything will be fine.

4 simple words. Infinite depth in meaning. Everything will be fine.

Sometimes people inadvertently help you just by being there. They don’t do anything or say much, but them just being there with you is probably the biggest asset in your life. They will listen to you, console you, make you laugh and at times unknowing to both of you give you just the correct amount of strength that you needed to get back up and fight the entire god damn world.

I don’t know if it makes me believe in lucky charms…. but it does make me believe in that one person.

 

Life Lessons Via Jim Carrey

 

I must confess that I’m a sucker for inspirational videos. Anything that gives me even an ounce of positivity attracts me like a moth to flame. But recently everything I read or watched gave me absolutely nothing. I mean I want something that would get my grey cells working and make me jump out of my chair to run after my dreams.

So when this video popped up on my Facebook page today, I would have given it a cursory glance, but Jim Carrey has a certain power on me. That man cracks me up like anything. What he said here is literally hands down the best thing I’v seen in a long long loooong time.

Not that it’s something I haven’t watched before or something I don’t know. But there is a certain way to tell something and this man has the ability to knock the air out of you with the way he speaks. It’s very easy to talk about positivity and dreams. But it’s a completely different thing to talk about it in a way that it makes people get up take notice.

15 minutes of pure genius. Also unadulterated love for Jimmy boy! ❤

That Moment….

There are times when all you want to do is howl and scream your heart out….and cry yourself to sleep. But all you can do is smile and pretend that everything is fine. When every fiber your being wants to run away and never come back. When breathing becomes a task. When nobody seems to understand what you are trying to say….not because they can’t understand, but because you are unable to tell them how much it hurts inside.

When being alone is the best part of your day, but nobody will ever leave you alone to enjoy that solitude. When eyes run dry of tears and nothing seems to fill the gap inside you. When advise’s flow in from everywhere and you are unable to tell people that it’s not advise that you want. And what you want is something they will never understand. Because you yourself are unable to get rid of the storm inside you.

You know something is wrong and thinking straight takes effort. When hurting yourself seems tempting but you know that it will never prove a point. When everything seems to fall apart and you are made to watch your life shredded into pieces. When you end up hurting the people closest to you. When nothing you say seems to make sense to anybody. And eventually your words lose all sense to you as well….

At that exact moment you need to be your strongest. When nothing seems right and nobody understands you. It is possible that you and only you can make sense of whats going on. Hold on to that. Because at that exact moment, you will finally come face to face with the real you.

That Sinking Feeling

Have you ever felt as if your mind is overflowing with all the emotions known to you? And that too without any logical reason?

It feels like happiness, anger, joy, frustration, love, jealousy and pain are all rolled into one and the mind takes you surfing through this wave of overwhelming emotions.

Your life is good, there is nothing wrong in your life which cannot be fixed and everything is happening like it is supposed to happen and yet, there is this sinking feeling inside you.

Like you’re riding this wave and there is no surfboard under you. You are just going with the wave. And this wave seems to go on endlessly.

You try and get hold of yourself, but there is nothing you can do. You can feel yourself drowning but there is nothing to help to get out.

You try hard. Frantically doing everything that could help you overcome this sinking feeling. But nothing helps.

There’s blank infinity in front of you.

You look around you and try to get hold of something….anything.

Anything that would pull you out of this wave. But there is nothing out there to help you. It’s just you.

You need to put in everything you have to get out of this. Only you can help yourself from drowning.

And you must do it before it’s too late.

What’s Meant To Be Will Always Find It’s Way

 

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What is meant to be will always find way.

I’ve always had mixed feeling when I heard this quote. Does it mean that if something is meant to be, it will happen no matter how much I try and avoid it?

Does it mean that whatever plans I’ve made about my life and future are going to be futile just because it was not meant to be?

I might not be a wise old woman but I’ve had my fair share of experiences that have made me wonder whether all the panning and thinking I do really matters?

Like when I’ve worked hard and planned and basically done everything I could do to make something happen, but the completely opposite result came out. And surprisingly, it felt good.

But at times it broke my heart so bad that it took me days to overcome the grief.

I’m usually not the “too much thinking” type of a person so I try and take this in a positive way. No matter how hard I need to work for something, I tell myself that if it’s meant to come to me, it will find its way. It’s out there somewhere, lost in the big bad world. But I’ll wait for it no matter how long it takes.

 

 

Making Mistakes

A life spent making mistakes is not only more honourable  but more useful than a life spent doing nothing. ~ George Bernard Shaw

 

I read something on Facebook today that got me thinking. It was “Make mistakes now. Making them later will be too late.”

We all make mistakes in our lives. Some small and some so big that they end up changing the entire track of our life. We always try not to make mistakes and do the best possible to avoid them. But they always creep up behind our back and wham! They are there. smirking smack at our face.

But as quoted above, a life without mistakes is a life with nothing done. Though I don’t believe there is anybody who has not made mistakes.

Then why are we so afraid of making mistakes? We know they would nearly always happen. Then why the fear?

I have made big mistakes in my life. And when I say big I mean B-I-G mistakes. And the biggest reason for this was that I was trying to not make a mistake. And in this process I ended up turning my life upside down. At that point of time I thought that this was the end of my life and I have absolutely nothing to look forward to. I came to a dead end.

But today, when I look back at those times in my life, I smile and realise how strong those mistakes made me. I had never been the ‘serious in life’ type. I still am not. But that dead end gave me the nudge that I desperately needed to get myself back on track and grow up. It made me realise how I am the only person who can help myself.

It made me lose the fear of making mistakes. Now when I want to do something I just do it.  I know I may screw up some things in the process, but what the hell! At least I enjoy life to my hearts content. Because I know that not doing something would  just make me regret it.

I’v stopped looking at them as mistakes. They are lessons that life taught me the hard way. Lessons that I really needed. My mistakes have been stepping stones in my life. I’m glad I made them. Because they are what made me who I am today.

I’ve failed over and over and over again in my life and that is why I succeed. ~ Michael Jordan